JAMES DARLING

FTM Porn Model & Director of FTMFucker.com

Posts tagged ftm

Cute photo from a shoot I did with Amy Bexxx in NYC, who’s ready for a ride? ;)

Cute photo from a shoot I did with Amy Bexxx in NYC, who’s ready for a ride? ;)

Swimsuit portion of the Original Plumbing SF Mr. Transman contest

behind the scenes showering with the gorgeous Damien Moreau, photo by Isabel Dresler

behind the scenes showering with the gorgeous Damien Moreau, photo by Isabel Dresler

Photo I took of the super handsome Rex for FTMFUCKER used on the Feminist Porn Award posters! #ftm #hot #leather

Photo I took of the super handsome Rex for FTMFUCKER used on the Feminist Porn Award posters! #ftm #hot #leather

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Anonymous asked: I believe you said once that you're mostly (though not at all exclusively) attracted to cis girls? If this is correctly, I'm curious, growing up did you identify as a lesbian at all, or did your gender identity form firmly enough that you've always just viewed yourself as a straight man? (Or more specifically as a bisexual closer to the straight end of the spectrum)

No, I wouldn’t have said cis girls. There was a time in my life when I was mostly attracted to women, but even when I was 16 that included trans women. I identified as an androgynous dyke as a teenager. There wasn’t really language or people around me for me to know being a trans guy was a possibility until I dated a trans woman who brought up the concept of trans men to me. Even then it took me a while to feel comfortable identifying as male, since most examples of maleness and masculinity in my life at the time were not things I wanted to emulate or aspire to be. I always had a sense of not fitting into what was expected of me as a child, gender or otherwise I was pretty weird. While I hated dresses and dolls, I wasn’t very masculine or one of those trans kids that asserted being a boy. I usually picked identifying as an animal over being a mom or a dad when playing house. 

As I gained more confidence and clarity I realized that I felt the most whole moving through the world seen as a man and eventually decided that hormones and surgery were things that would help me achieve a body I could live with. I don’t consider myself straight, but when I am dating a woman I try to acknowledge the huge privileges that come with being perceived as straight and cis when I’m in public spaces. It’s a really strange thing to navigate, especially when I also date men and am typically perceived as gay by strangers. I’m attracted to a wide variety of gender presentations and bodies, but find I’m most often attracted to femininity, whether those are femme men or women or otherwise. 

James Darling from the backphoto by Dave Naz

James Darling from the back
photo by Dave Naz

Anonymous asked: You seem like you're pretty comfortable with your body, do you ever wear a packer?

I love my body! I’m a lot happier with it now than I was before I transitioned. Sometimes I still get insecure about stuff just like everyone else. My body isn’t perfect but its mine and I’ve learned to love the vessel of flesh I travel around on in this lifetime and in general am pretty stoked on it. I used to wear packers when I first came out, but as I gained confidence and passing privilege I found them unnecessary and cumbersome, so I don’t use one anymore. Honestly no one really notices my lack of a bulge or is at least not rude enough to comment on it, and the only time it has come up has been when I’ve gotten cruised in a bar and someone shoves their hand down my pants. Day to day it hasn’t been an issue for me, even at the gym. I think packers are great when you’re still trying to figure out what makes you feel at home in your own body and can be a great confidence booster, so do whatever makes you feel the best!

Shot day #ftm #trans #testosterone

Shot day #ftm #trans #testosterone